Susanne in 1985
Day of Jason's Wedding to Kim
Day at the aquarium
July 4, 2008
One evening in August, 2008 This is the day the Lord has made. I shall rejoice and be glad in it.
Today I have been brought back to memory lane. The place where we sometimes are taken by circumstance not by choice. I awoke this morning with such a heaviness in my heart. At that first eye opening moment I knew that there was something different, unpleasant, but it took me a second to be reminded. Then it came to me. A couple in our church had been notified of the death of their son. He had been killed in a car accident in Chicago and had died on the operating table. Our prayers are with this family as they travel down this long, lonely, painful road.
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I am always so touched whenever I hear about someone that is having to go through such loss and pain. If you remember when I started to blog at the very beginning it was to help me remember things that I just pushed aside after my daughter, Susanne, died. It is such a lonely, painful road to travel after you lose a child. I can truly say that by the GRACE of God did I get this far in life.
I am so reminded of the blessings I still have on this earth, Bunni and Jason. There is no way I can describe the love I have for these two grown children of mine. I thank God every day for blessing me with them. In return they have blessed me with wonderful mates and beautiful grandchildren.
I don't know why God allows such tragedy to touch our lives. There are so many trials that we all go through. Some worse than others. Sometimes I try to make sense of some of this but you can't make any sense out of the loss of a child. Only God knows why He has allowed such a thing to occur so therefore we can only trust in God's judgement, even though we may not agree with it.
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I do know though, that every time I experience this pain with someone else I am reminded to be so thankful for the children I have still with me. To never take one moment for granted. To tell them often how much I love them, show them as much as I can and be there for them whenever they may need me.
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My prayer for Bunni and Jason has been:
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MY CHILDREN SHALL BE TAUGHT BY THE LORD AND GREAT
SHALL BE THE PEACE OF MY CHILDREN.....................
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Words are inadequate to try to tell them how much I love them. I pray God understands how grateful I am for them. After 22 years of Susanne being gone, I now know that I am closer than ever to seeing her again and I do so look forward to it. But until that day comes, I pray God will give me the wisdom and understanding and love to be all I can be to Bunni and Jason.
3 comments:
I'm glad your're back! I agree, we will never understand in our limited wisdom the ways of The Father. His Grace and Love for us is what we can see, not His reasoning. I do believe we see in finite time...He sees on an infinate time line. To be Thankful and Glorifing is more than we can handle. I have seen lived out both in your life.
I Love you,
Your Sister
Thanks Alma for taking the time to let me know you are reading my blogs. I do appreciate it more than you know.!Sometimes you wonder if anyone is reading them. Of course I do this really just for myself, it is sort of like a sounding board. I love you also, Thanks again.
I pushed the wrong button, that was me Alma, not anonymous, as if you didn't know. lol LaJuanah
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